i find myself sad and confused about deciding about going back to work. on one hand i need to get out for my own sanity. on the other i am filled with guilt as i have a severely cronically ill son. he is 12 and has undergone 18 open heart related surgeries, his prognosis is very poor the latest reports say 16.3 years.
unfornitatly my husbands job of 28 years is closing the doors. we need health insurance of course, and will be a family of 6 with no income.
i struggle with the weight of making my sons life the happiest possible, and wanting to spend every waking moment i can with him , while i still have him.
his situation has taken its toll on me and the entire family.
i suffer from panic attacks, depression, and severe weight gain.
as i come close to my 45 birthday i worry that i will not be able to re enter the work place.